Day Numero Uno

Me at my biggest.
Watch out for that camel toe!

          My name is Stefanie. I'm 23 & from a little town in Texas called Splendora. I decided to make a weight loss blog today, because my bff, Amber, is makin' one, too. I have been "dieting" since April 12, 2010. Basically, I look at food completely different. Before I decided to start this diet, I wanted to read some more into what exactly I need to do. I didn't want to just go on another diet, lose some weight, then stop the diet, & put it all back on. I wanted to make a lifestyle change. I read tons of articles on the internet, watched people's inspirational weight loss videos on youtube, & read a book called "The Maker's Diet to Weight Loss" by Jordan S. Rubin. I didn't necassarily want to do the diet in his book, but I wanted to know more about what the heck I've been eating, and what I need to eat. I learned to look at food in a totally different way. I used to just eat & eat, because I never felt full, or because I was bored, or just because. I used to eat the most fattening foods, too. Just the other day when I was shopping, I happened to look at one thing I used to eat sometimes: a Totino's pizza. Yes, that cheap one at Wal-Mart that's like $1. I looked at the calorie content...over 750 calories! I used to eat a whole one, by myself, with Spicy Ranch. That's like 1000 calories at one sitting!! NASTY!! Now when I look at food, I think about how many calories are in it, and if it's more than about 300, it's hard for me to eat it. For example, I eat Lean Cuisine, Smart Ones, & Healthy Choice TV dinners. It's hard for me to eat one that's over 300 calories. I'd rather grab one that is the same amount of food, for like 230 or 250 or even 290 calories. That just makes more sense to me. And I try to eat all throughout the day, snacks & whatever. I try to eat Fiber One bars or those Kellogg's bars with fiber & antioxidants. One thing I read in that "Maker's..." book was that for every gram of fiber you eat, you poop out 7 un-used calories. So in a fiber bar, there's between 5-7 grams of fiber (depending on which one I eat), so that's between 35-49 un-used calories that I'm poopin' out! Sounds gross, but whatever...And I try to exercise. I used to run at least a mile every night & do Barry's Bootcamp, but I've been slacking off...til today! I found my motivation again (Thank God) & actually had just finished working out right before I started this blog. Hopefully, I'll be able to stay motivated by writing on this thing, posting pictures, & talking about how much I weigh.

Me now, at 190 lbs :)

          So...bet you're wonderin' how much I weigh...well, I'm 5'7 & right now I weigh 190 lbs. I started in April at 210 lbs. I was at 185 just a couple of weeks ago, but like I said, I've been slacking off with working out. This whole weight thing started forever ago. In high school, I was never skinny, and I hated the way I looked. I was around 170 lbs then. I stayed about the same, until I went to college. Fast food & the cheap, fattening foods at the store help me turn into the fat & sassy thing I am now. I gained a dedgum 40 lbs within 2 years. I guess what also helped was that I had a boyfriend that I was head-over-heels for. He gained 40 lbs while we were together, too. It was because we were so comfortable with each other & we didn't have to look amazing for each other. Oh well. That relationship ended in August 2009 after over 2 years together. Anyway...after that, long-story short: work, school, no bf, then no work, then no school, then horrible depression (yes, clinical), then mean new bf that played me, THEN DIET! Oh, & no more depression :). I would like to get down to 135 lbs. That's my absolute goal weight, & I can't wait!! And I just want to let whoever reads this know, that you may not think I'm a cow, or fat, or whatever, but I do. I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. Almost like I'm claustrophobic. So whatever your opinions are about what I look like, keep 'em to yourself, I'm doin' this for me, & no one but me. :) AND, I have learned that confidence is the most beautiful thing EVER! Even though I'm not fully satisfied with the way I look, I still think I'm hot shit!!

Here's some more pictures of me. Some of them are me in a bra & a thong, so beware!!
          PICTURES :)